Chp. 8 - i was rejected

WARNING: This is not a happy chapter.

I DON'T RECOMMEND WATCHING UNLESS YOU

REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED.

This is Chapter 8 of my Diary of an Alchemist series. In this chapter, I talk about a time in 2019 when I told someone I was close to about my spiritual growth and all the new things I was learning.

I didn't know it at the time, but I was really enmeshed with them. I was becoming my own person and felt like this person would take it as a rejection of their identity of being very logical and rational.

They snapped at me and picked apart what I was saying - out of their own insecurity and lack of emotional awareness.

And it hurt… so badly.

But it's exactly what I needed in order to feel the rock bottom grief of not being understood. From that place, I vowed to not accept less love and understanding than what I deserve.

It was the point of no return in my healing journey. I began to raise my standards of what I perceived of as love. And from there I went on my 6-year shadow work journey to reclaim all the parts of myself. I'd repressed so much of who I was because of this unhealthy dynamic and relationship to this person.

Watch the full video below.