Chp. 5 - Reacting to my Past Self’s Perspective on Life

In 2019, I set an intention at night to dream about and understand what were the difficult emotions in my ancestral lineage. I dreamed about and then journaled, uncovered and worked through a sense of Helplessness and root core of that feeling was the Emotion of Worry.

In 2022, I wanted to start my youtube channel and decided to make a video about that specific journal entry. I never continued with youtube at that point so the video just sat on my computer’s hard drive until…

May of 2025, I had finally started posting consistently on youtube and was going in chronological order of my journal entries. I was at the point of telling this 2019 journal entry and decided to react to my 2022 video, reacting to it. Kind of a cool meta-universe type of thing.

In this 2025 video, I parcel out the original journal entry from 2019, as well as react to my 2022 self and her perspective at that point in my journey. I suspected she’d be a little more judgmental and critical of my younger self. And also had a feeling that she would talk in the video as if SHE had the EXACT, Right way of how to do things, because she honestly believed there was only one way to do things. She didn’t have the perspective yet to see how she was one of many different types of people. And that there could be many different ways of coming to your own truth.

I go over all that in this video below.

If you want to see specifically the bit on “how to deal with worry”, go to the 51:10 minute mark.

And yes, I know the audio got “off” on some of the clips. My bad. 😁